Mirror

Mirror does not deceive,

Mirror does not lie,
Mirror does not tease...                                                                                                                                                  
Years after someone's pain
Showed me a mirror image,
A shadow of life
Of an innocent mind,
A novice heart,
A trusting soul....                                                                                                                                                        
And a cold current
Passed though the
Spinal cord....                                                                                                                                              

A memory lane revisited..
A lump got stuck in the throat....                                                                                                                  

A soul stood apart
And it's not his
It's not their's
It's mine
Fortunately or unfortunately it's mine...                                                                                                       

No one else can visualize
The shadow of an wound
Inflicted by our own loving folks
It's deep,it's deeper than
The deepest damage
Caused by someone unknown...                                                                                                              
You come,meet people
And give your
Sweat and blood,
Heart and soul
And have faith on them
Even beyond your imagination !
Everything seem lovely and joyful...
You promise ..
A Life time dedication for them all...                                                                                                            

And who knows
When your own,
Your so called very own
And lovely People put boundary
All Around your soul !
Start slandering your
Unmistakable faith on them
As a mindless immaturity,
Your care for them as a gimmick
Your sweat and blood
As brainless investment
And the gesture by them
Was enough.....
To kill the faith and break the heart and soul...                                                                                           

But you were confused..
The dismayed soul
Is shattered but
Not convinced.....                                                                                                                                      
How can this happen?
How can your rock solid faith
Being misinterpreted,
Misused and murdered
How can your faith and love
Be misunderstood and ignored???
How,how,how???                                                                                                                                      
No answer!!!                                                                                                                                              
You introspect,you think
You ponder,you ask yourself,

You request them, you beg
To just let you know once
Only once ..
Where did you go wrong...

How can your people..
Your own people
Can not understand you
Make some simple sense !!!
But....                                                                                                                                                          

To your utter surprise you
Found ..no one was even listening
Long back they all have gone....
In the dead of the darkness
With an unknown road ahead
You are left alone
Completely alone...
To fend for yourself
But with a dictum
'You have to walk the same road..'                                                                                                            
All your love being made a joke
All your sighs interpreted as smoke
And your silence taken
As your weakness
Your unmistakable faith
Became mockery
Your divine trust strangled
Your heart broke in pieces
But even could not dare to rattle
Your tears could not stop
But even then you could not
Dare to roll them down and wipe them up....                                                                                            
You had a volume to speak
You had a painful box to unfold
But you couldn't...
Because the world only
Listens what it wants.....
Your so called own ones had gone
And you standing on the road
If preferred to stop,
No one will take a breath
To feel your pain and
Will not leave a chance to laugh..                                                                                                               

A very painful moment
Even graver than seeing
Death in front
Where to go from here???
The road ahead is dark
The back doors are blocked
You are saddened,broken
But bound by your promises
To life and trust ....                                                                                                                                      

But like all dark nights
End in a day
Whether you could see or not
However painful it seem
Life always leaves a healing touch !                                                                                                            

That's the moment of
Immense pain to leave and go
Carrying some memory with you
And leaving the past in a box
For Time to unfold and unlock..
Because that was the divine call !                                                                                                               

Your own ,so called owns
Leave no stones unturned
To flood with sympathy and care
Promising every mending act
To bring you back on the track...
But You really really painfully laugh inside
And dismayingly ask
'If no one cared in life
Why the fiasco on my death?'....
But they insist on repair and repentance
Love and every goodness further..                                                                                                             

Shattered you silently sit and ask your soul
'Did I ever come here to gain?
Did I ever bargain with unmistakable love
Did I ever want a thing for me
Selling My integrity and soul ?'
I came here being called by them
To build a life of trust
Spent my heart and soul
And only wanted to
Plant a seed of faith,light a lamp for all..                                                                                                    
And the pain and ridicule I received
Are enough to take a call......                                                                                                                      

A silent departure was long overdue
And who can be more trustworthy than
"Time" to play it's role
People who called you yesterday God
Left no opportunity missed
To level you mad,
The letters of love and divine appreciation
In no time
Turned ruthless accusation...                                                                                                                      

And you could not even had the
Luck to explain...
Because they leveled the stamp on you
'For petty gains you moved on..'                                                                                                            
Painfully enough some people and relations
Were left behind but a lesson for life was learnt !                                                                                           

Today Witnessing the pain of 

Parting and moving                                                                                                                                 In In another soul...
Reminded me all...                                                                                                                                      

But you don't need to worry
Or stop ...
Just moving and thanking them
For being a part
Of life is all you need to do
And rest will be taken care of
By Time and God
The ultimate judge,,,.
And again the mirror
Will never lie even to those...